August292014

iguanamouth:

a lot of people are burned out on emoticons but one that ill never get tired of is :> because it looks like youre being talked to by a friendly bird

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August262014

Based on information I received this morning…

Life status update: currently cautiously optimistic. I’ll find out something next week. 

In the meantime, applications, school work, normal work, and Diablo 3.

August252014

Mope train is in gear choo choo

A week later and nothing to show for it. I’ve started applying for jobs. My company still hasn’t made a decision over whether or not I get to stay. I’m still straddling that line between ok and not ok. I have enough to do to be a bit stressed but not enough to warrant it. I did at least slam some work out last week and am that much closer to a meaningless online certificate in data science, but the sense of accomplishment doesn’t stick when I look at jobs that ask for seven years of on job experience. 

I’m hoping tomorrow that I can apply for some more jobs, log into Diablo, and just tell emotions to fuck off for a little bit. 

August182014

I’ve been feeling heavy lately. Not depressed, not sad, not anxious. Just heavy. Like it’s hard to carry myself. 

Part of it is just what I have on my plate. Two projects this week. A wedding this weekend for a person I barely know (bf’s family). The GRE in a couple weeks, even though I took it six years ago. 

Then things not happening, like this full time position. It’s a long story, but the short version is that everyone I work with wants me to stay there, but the higher ups (well, really, just one of them, but the biggest one) either is just not paying attention or doesn’t care that this isn’t something I can wait on. I’m paying for my own insurance, I’m only making $20 an hour for skills that should demand much more. It’s been exhilarating, moving out of the slump my life was in, but now I’m in this new mini slump where I’m where I’d like to stay but no one will just tell me that I can. That I’ll be ok. 

Let’s not even get started on video games. Most MMOs are leaving me feeling horribly lonely, so I’ve been avoiding them. That and I’m just having trouble connecting. Besides Diablo, no games actually keep me entertained and I understand what that means, because it’s not like Diablo is really that amazing of a game. All I can stick with is doing the same thing over and over again without having to rely on other people. 

Then there’s my new bird. She’s a joy. She’s a brat. She’s something I’m letting distract me as much as I can, because I can see the difference it makes in her life and her happiness when she has us engaging with her. 

So yeah. I get home from work where I have no security, play with my bird for most of the night, then just kind of go to bed. If I haven’t recently known how I feel when I’m depressed, I would be really worried, but it’s just heavy.

August152014

Anonymous said: Because reevaluating one's life is the perfect cure for anxiety problems, amirite?

As someone who finally has her anxiety is pretty good check: it’s the only cure. 

Sure, I’ve got my fancy medication (SSRI). It helped the most at first and does keep me from letting the highs go too high or the lows go too low. It, however, didn’t fix things on its own. It wasn’t until I stopped and took the time to figure out the sources of my anxiety and, yeah, reevaluate my life that I finally ended up in a healthy space. 

Good luck to the person who is feeling this way. 

August132014
August102014
Of course, we didn’t last long without a pet. 
Our first day without Archibald was horrible. We both kept finding ourselves going to say hi to her, to give her a kiss, to snuggle her head with our noses. Then she wasn’t there. Over and over, she wasn’t there. The next day, we went to a bird store with the intention of just playing with some birds, but when I saw this conure, I knew this was our new baby. This is Ford. 
He doesn’t replace Archibald. Getting a different kind of bird makes that easy, not treating him like a replacement but his own self with his own quirks. We’ve now had him a week and he’s exactly what we needed. And we’re exactly what he needed, too. There’s already a strong bond there and I’m so glad we dropped the money on him when we did.
We got Archibald’s ashes back three days ago. We had spent the day with the new baby, but when we got our girl back, we just held her urn in our hands together and cried. I think I looked up first and saw Ford looking at us, his wings stretched as he tried to will himself across the space to be with us. He’s not Archibald, but he’s our baby. Here’s to many years together. Here’s to giving him the life we gave Archibald.

Of course, we didn’t last long without a pet. 

Our first day without Archibald was horrible. We both kept finding ourselves going to say hi to her, to give her a kiss, to snuggle her head with our noses. Then she wasn’t there. Over and over, she wasn’t there. The next day, we went to a bird store with the intention of just playing with some birds, but when I saw this conure, I knew this was our new baby. This is Ford. 

He doesn’t replace Archibald. Getting a different kind of bird makes that easy, not treating him like a replacement but his own self with his own quirks. We’ve now had him a week and he’s exactly what we needed. And we’re exactly what he needed, too. There’s already a strong bond there and I’m so glad we dropped the money on him when we did.

We got Archibald’s ashes back three days ago. We had spent the day with the new baby, but when we got our girl back, we just held her urn in our hands together and cried. I think I looked up first and saw Ford looking at us, his wings stretched as he tried to will himself across the space to be with us. He’s not Archibald, but he’s our baby. Here’s to many years together. Here’s to giving him the life we gave Archibald.

11AM

fluthermucken-the-deity:

raptortooth:

wagwias:

Two kinds of people:

People who took the news of feathered dinosaurs like this:

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And those who took it like this:

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SCIENCE MADE DINOSAURS PERFECT I WILL FIGHT YOU

The plumage!
THE PLUMAGE!
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAA!!!!
~Mad Scientist perfecting dinosaurs

THE SECOND ONE. 

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August72014
I have another super srs post in the works. But before that:
HEY WILMA YOU SO FINE YOU SO FINE YOU BLOW MY MIND HEY WILMA

I have another super srs post in the works. But before that:

HEY WILMA YOU SO FINE YOU SO FINE YOU BLOW MY MIND HEY WILMA

August22014

the-goddamazon:

thewomanfromitaly:

gailsimone:

berenzero:

And people wonder why I love Wonder Woman so much.

Bingo.

The third and last pictures are painting a bdsm picture in my head and I’m not sure what to do with it

I want to date Wonder Woman. ;_;

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